http://alt.com/blog/KneelingMN/index.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203 Mostly this is about my journey into submission, although the rest of life shows up occasionally. http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_233292.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= I've been away for a while, and I've missed you all. It's been an interesting time. This has not been my healthiest winter, but mostly I've been struggling through realizing that my relationship wit Mon, 01 Jan 2007 09:30:05 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_233292.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_189261.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Well, I was tagged by the lovely _idole_ for the 6 odd facts tag. 1. I can play entire video games in my head while attempting to bore myself to sleep. 2. I am the most anal/perfectionist/over-syst Mon, 25 Sep 2006 20:09:16 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_189261.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_177150.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Being able to sit at his feet again, listening to the music and just talking. Making dinner for him, and cleaning up the kitchen with him. Something has finally convinced him to let me help, at leas Mon, 28 Aug 2006 19:04:05 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_177150.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_175933.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Sir gave me a bit of scare this week -- he passed out at work! They aren't sure what's wrong. It definitely wasn't a heart attack. He's got to wear a heart monitor for the next month. The one good Fri, 25 Aug 2006 20:14:56 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_175933.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_174184.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Well it seems like everyone is doing this and tagging everyone else. So far, I've managed to answer for DominaDelight, but I promise I'll get to the rest! But since I said I'd post it, here it is. Mon, 21 Aug 2006 19:26:30 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_174184.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_169512.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= I went to the doctor today. My bone has fully knit and is ossifying nicely. There is only a 15 degree deflection in the bone, which is very impressive for someone "with, well, bosoms" as the doctor s Thu, 10 Aug 2006 19:03:09 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_169512.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_169094.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Well, I'm definitely getting better. I went back to work 2 weeks ago. That's been hard, but I've managed to start digging myself out. Motivation is difficult too; it's hard to believe I'll ever cat Wed, 09 Aug 2006 19:46:28 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_169094.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_159398.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= I'm sorry, this took so long, allywaterfall6!"Please answer with four answers to each category *only*!"First Four Jobs I Had in My Life...1. Babysitter2. Teaching Assistant3. Temp Secretary4. Library Mon, 17 Jul 2006 10:03:16 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_159398.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_159393.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Well, it seems that breaking one's humerus (upper arm bone) is a bit more serious than I originally thought! I've been on heavy pain meds for 3 weeks now, and I'm finally going to try stepping down f Mon, 17 Jul 2006 09:52:03 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_159393.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_150986.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= For those of you who haven't heard, I was a great big dumbass Sunday. I slipped and fell in the shower and broke the humerus in my right arm. It's an oblique break, which is good and bad. I don't have Tue, 27 Jun 2006 12:11:16 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_150986.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_149437.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Thank you, _idole_ for a lovely distraction while I wait to hear from Sir. 54321 Tag aka Countdown Tag5 Things You Can't Live Without4 Pet Peeves3 Things You Want To Do2 Unique Characteristics About Y Fri, 23 Jun 2006 22:18:12 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_149437.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_148438.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= I hadn't heard from Sir in a while. The schedule didn't work last week, and then nothing. No contact like that makes me very nervous. I kept trying to convince myself that I was just being insecure Wed, 21 Jun 2006 17:32:37 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_148438.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_148369.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= It is not fun to discover that what you hoped were paranoid fears have come true. Yes, I know this is cryptic, but I can't write more yet. Soon. Wed, 21 Jun 2006 14:09:34 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_148369.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_147194.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= I've never quite understood something I've read several blogs about: a craving to be pushed to tears. I think I'm beginning to understand that. Sun, 18 Jun 2006 21:52:17 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_147194.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_146304.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Six months ago tonight, for the very first time, I climbed the steps to Sir's home. I could hardly breathe and I trembled as I read the note left for me on the door, "Welcome Whore, come in and kneel Fri, 16 Jun 2006 17:49:07 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_146304.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_145951.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= It's now been officially six months since I first began to serve Sir. Six months ago today, I knelt for the first time, naked and waiting for him. I'll post more later about that. A while ago, I wro Thu, 15 Jun 2006 22:27:43 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_145951.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_145911.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= My mind keeps returning to how I felt having my nicely striped ass displayed at the workshop last week. While in several ways it was humiliating, it was also very hot. What is interesting to me is h Thu, 15 Jun 2006 20:42:13 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_145911.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_143893.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= Last night was the Erotic Deviance workshop on caning. Sir definitely wanted to go, and I really enjoyed the flogging workshop last month, so I made plans to go as well. Parking was HARD to find. I en Sun, 11 Jun 2006 10:40:58 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_143893.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_143892.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= I indulged this past week and took Monday afternoon off to see Sir. With his schedule, that gave us the most possible time. I hadn't dared to tell him, but I found myself craving some real intensity a Sun, 11 Jun 2006 10:39:07 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_143892.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_140639.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m= I'm a posting fool tonight! I just felt the need to announce to the world that I have painted my toe nails hot pink. This makes me strangely happy in a very silly way. I keep having this desire to Sun, 04 Jun 2006 21:44:42 -0800 http://alt.com/blog/15400/post_140639.html?site=bdsm&pid=p5203&m=