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Fairy Musings and Elven Magick

Just the rambling musings of a tiny fairy. some bdsm experiences, mostly just stream of consciousness. hope you like.

Switcy frustrations
Posted:Jan 1, 2021 6:13 am
Last Updated:Aug 3, 2023 9:00 pm
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I have a very small irritation I simply wish to vent about.

Your profile indicates that you are a Dominant . You are gorgeous, sweet, firm and a little scary. Everything I want in a or a Sensualist/Primal.

And then the bomb shell drops. "I wrote you because you're a switch and I secretly want to submit."

Or We meet, and my personality is way stronger than their Dominance. It's not on purpose. I apparently have this curse where switches can't seem to hold onto their switch with me.

Power struggles are supposed to end with me loosing, not walking all over you.

FUCK THIS SUCKS

the fabulous Little Miss Moxie
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Switcy frustrations
Posted:Jan 1, 2021 6:06 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 6:28 am
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I have a very small irritation I simply wish to vent about.

Your profile indicates that you are a Dominant . You are gorgeous, sweet, firm and a little scary. Everything I want in a or a Sensualist/Primal.

And then the bomb shell drops. "I wrote you because you're a switch and I secretly want to submit."

Or We meet, and my personality is way stronger than their Dominance. It's not on purpose. I apparently have this curse where switches can't seem to hold onto their switch with me.

Power struggles are supposed to end with me loosing, not walking all over you.

FUCK THIS SUCKS

the fabulous Little Miss Moxie
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What's with the Fairy Thing? The Dory Fey thing?
Posted:Sep 24, 2018 12:10 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2021 6:08 am
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Well, it started specifically because of my height. I am a grand four foot eleven and 3/4 inches tall barefoot. I am fairy sized. With the personality to match.\

JM Barrie in Peter Pan said this about fairies: “Tink was not all bad: or, rather, she was all bad just now, but, on the other hand, sometimes she was all good. Fairies have to be one thing or the other, because being so small they unfortunately have room for one feeling only at a time. They are, however, allowed to change, only it must be a complete change.”

This ^^^^^ right here. This is ME. Little Miss Moxie, the Dory Fey, too small to contain an emotion or feel more than one at a time. I am fully invested in the moment.

Thankfully fairies are also so small their attention spans match their size. So, they don't stay bad or angry or mean for long. There's too much beauty in the world ... too many flowers and babies and kittens and blue skies, to about to worry about being mad all the time.

Now, a lot of you have noticed that I've started using my nickname on here. Everyone in my life calls me Mama Dory. Or Dory Fey. (Fey is an old old old word for fairy folk.)

Dory, for those who don't know, comes from the movie Finding Nemo. She is the Blue Tang voiced by Ellen DeGeneres who has short term memory issues. Thanks to a car accident in '99 and some TBI, I have a damaged short term memory. This means I have to work very hard to remember anything. Little things slip through like water through a sieve. It makes me seem flighty and ditzy, even though I happen to be IMHO, fairly well spoken and intelligent. After the accident, I identified very strongly with Dory the Tang and when my stutter/aphasia would threaten I would loudly blurt out "F.f.f.f.f fourty two Wallaby Way, Sydney" or when someone would say "I told you this yesterday" I'd turn and say ..."Hi. My names Dory. I have short term memory loss. It runs in my family ... I think." This earned me the nickname Dory.

Considering only my father uses my birth name ....I'm all good with that!

the fabulous little miss Moxie
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Do you wear striped socks like the fairy depicted?
Posted:Sep 24, 2018 12:09 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2021 6:09 am
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For DancingDom

Actually I do.

Not as much as I used to. I work 2 jobs plus I am a romance novelist working on a book series. I wear a uniform to one job, the other is online after midnight and I have a bad habit of working in my pjs.

But when I get an excuse to dress up (which has been non-existant lately. Without a dom or sub to take me out once in a while, I don't go anywhere anymore. Boy, I miss dancing so much!) I dress to the nines. I LOVE fancy, short dresses and knee high socks or thigh high stockings (this old fashioned girl likes garter belts!)

I have 3 pairs right now. Blue and black stripes, red and black stripes, and black and grey.

But my Harley Shit Kicker boots that zipped up to my upper calf I wore for 11 years! They bit the dust over the winter. Those looked AWESOME with knee highs, dresses, short skirts ....just a little bit of alternative punk/biker with femme fairy.

It's almost been a year. I grieve the loss of those boots as if they were a dear friend!

the fabulous little miss Moxie

ps - the pic below is from about 2 years ago. I wish I'd never cut my hair. I so totally miss my long hair!
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Do you wear striped socks like the fairy depicted?
Posted:Sep 24, 2018 12:05 pm
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2018 7:44 pm
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For DancingDom

Actually I do.

Not as much as I used to. I work 2 jobs plus I am a romance novelist working on a book series. I wear a uniform to one job, the other is online after midnight and I have a bad habit of working in my pjs.

But when I get an excuse to dress up (which has been non-existant lately. Without a dom or sub to take me out once in a while, I don't go anywhere anymore. Boy, I miss dancing so much!) I dress to the nines. I LOVE fancy, short dresses and knee high socks or thigh high stockings (this old fashioned girl likes garter belts!)

I have 3 pairs right now. Blue and black stripes, red and black stripes, and black and grey.

But my Harley Shit Kicker boots that zipped up to my upper calf I wore for 11 years! They bit the dust over the winter. Those looked AWESOME with knee highs, dresses, short skirts ....just a little bit of alternative punk/biker with femme fairy.

It's almost been a year. I grieve the loss of those boots as if they were a dear friend!

the fabulous little miss Moxie

ps - the pic below is from about 2 years ago. I wish I'd never cut my hair. I so totally miss my long hair!
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Open Mic Call for Subject Matter
Posted:Sep 23, 2018 10:05 pm
Last Updated:Sep 25, 2018 11:34 am
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All right all my Warriors and Valkyries, It's open mic time.

I've recently been made aware of how many people actually follow my blog and it kind of blew my mind a little. Sometimes I go a fair time without writing because I loose track of ideas of things to write.

I'd be up for some suggestions for what you all would like to see your Fabulous Little Miss Moxie write about. It could be just about anything...BDSM questions about my experience in the lifestyle, questions about the life of a poly switch, or maybe you've read some of my older posts and have questions relating to them. Maybe you just want to know what my favorite color is and why? I don't know. If some of you want to see more poetry or erotica, let me know.

Some recent "topics" that were asked in my inbox that I will hope to get to until some ideas on new topics come up.

1. Why Miss Moxie goes by Dory?
2. What's with all the fairy stuff?
3. Why do you think it's been so hard for you to find a Dom/Top?
4. Why do you want a Daddy?
and 4.5 Can a 30 year old man successfully Daddy a 42 year old woman?
5. Why do you have a "no one over 60 limit"
6. Why do you have a no CD/no trans limit?

okay ...... I'm begging you all ... pretty please with Miss Moxie on top ... keep the list going in the comments.

the fabulous, currently in idea-block, little miss Moxie

Aka
Dory Fey
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You'd think Dick was a kink.
Posted:Sep 23, 2018 1:36 am
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2018 12:04 pm
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If you're cruising for sex calling yourself a Dom and your dick is your kink, I'm just going to get bored.

Let me repeat.

I am not a barmaid. I am a Shield-maiden. I am not a hump or a fucktoy. I am a Warrior Queen. I am not a one night stand. If you talk to me like a bar wench, you will get a response that would make a sailor turn purple. And if you send me a dick pic, I will know that you're just a male hump looking to get his tip wet.

I've decided that from now on all unsolicited dick pics will be posted in my blog to be shamed.

the fabulous little Miss Moxie
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Disgustingly cheerful: the Pollyanna Personality
Posted:Sep 22, 2018 11:57 pm
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2018 9:47 pm
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I have been getting the same feedback a lot lately. It started at work. I'm a gas station attendant. (Don't knock it boys, I LOVE my job) My town is a tiny little sneeze town, a farm town with a gas station and a local market and a LOT of farms. I know half of my customers by first name and the other half by their cigarette brand. One regular comes in, like clock work, at 8pm for his coffee, rock star, and slice of Pizza. I call him Mr. Ray. He's a third shifter, so he's rolling in having just woken up. And GRUMPY. But he's a character and I adore him.

Since my first night at the register Mr Ray informs me that I'm disgustingly cheerful, too much for a guy who's morning starts at 8pm. So I tone it down when he comes in, lowering my voice, staying sweetly me but trying not to annoy him (until he's had that first glorious sip of coffee while paying)

Many of my other regulars (townies) who know me outside of the register, think I'm too nice, too happy, particularly for the terrible things that have happened to me this year alone. I dance at work to music in my head while mopping. Even though some of them know there have been day where I wan't sure I"d go home to power. Or water. Or food. Or one of my minnows having issues (I have mentally ill minnows)

Coincidentally I've run into a few Dominant men and no few sub males who also seem to think that I'm too cheerful, too happy. It makes me appear flighty, or ditzy apparently. (let's not forget that Dory Fey is ditzy, happens when you nearly smash your brain in on a car steering wheel)

I tell people (proudly) that I work at a gas station and I'm greeted with reactions that range from pity (you poor thing, working in a gas station) to being looked down at for having a "low class job" and suddenly I'm being treated a if I have an 8th grade education and maturity level. (At least I'm working!)

Along with this recent "too cheerful" state, I've also been informed I'm too honest. Maybe I am. I tend to be frighteningly honest and open with total strangers. Open book? I'm a journal laid out on a table for anyone to read through. I mean ... look who's blog you all are reading! Apparently, to further add to my list of crimes ... I am incapable of lying ... I get sick to my stomach, my stutter and aphasia come out full force. So I find myself overly honest instead. I tend to say what's on my mind, with little sugar coating. Not a good thing when what comes out of your mouth to the really hot 37 something single guy that comes in every night to buy beer and cigarettes that he smells like leather and warm nights! (I do love a farm town)

It bothers me, I think, that cheerful and happy, even when your life is in a bad phase, is seen as ditzy or overblown, a dramatic. I've even been accused of being condescending or fake. It breaks my heart that so many subs out there seem to think that because I'm happy and sweet-natured that I don't have a Domme side. They never make it past coffee to find out. It shatters me that Dom men feel that I'm annoyingly cheerful. Maybe they feel that since I'm so happy, even in the darkest of times, I somehow don't need them, their care, their strength. It couldn't be more further from the truth. Fairies need guardians, we need strong Warriors to keep the evil of the world from pulling off our wings and leaving us to die dreamless.

I am that fairy. And I am a rose colored glasses girl, dancing her way through a darkened world.

I can't help that. I'll always have music in my head, and a little bit of dance in my walk. I believe in dragons and magic and that there is good in everyone (Skywalker Syndrome)

Funny. Tonight when Mr. Ray came to the store, I was not smiling or happy. I'd had a terrible ordeal today that had stolen quite a lot of my smile.

"I think I prefer disgustingly cheerful" He said to me tonight. "My night doesn't look up until I get my coffee and my Dory smile." He hugged me.

A man I haven't seen smile in 62 days of working here hugged me. AND SMILED FOR ME.

And I smiled back and told him the moon was beautiful tonight and he should peek at it before going to work.

A glance out the window. He was standing by the door of his truck, looking up at the near-full moon.

I guess I'm a lost cause.

lust and love,
your disgustingly cheerful,
fabulous little Miss Moxie

aka Dory the Fey
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Re-share with addition - Stuff I'm Sensitive About
Posted:Sep 22, 2018 9:05 am
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2018 11:13 pm
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I wrote some of this last year. I decided to edit and add a few little things.

So I've discovered a few things I'm sensitive about. I don't mean like, I get butt hurt and weird about it, just that I wish more people understood the self confidence issues my few "quirks" cause me. So I figured, how about a blog. I haven't done one in a while and I'm sure some of you are getting ready to complain so ......

1. I have aphasia.

Ok, for those of you without a medical degree, aphasia is a condition in which speech doesn't work right, a speaker gets stuck, stutters, or during an anxiety attack or pre-seizure phase can't speak. Often it starts with this mental situation: "I'm brilliant, I can talk and write and speak like a god damned thesaurus so why can't i get this thought out of my head? Great, now I"m stuttering. Now I"m freaked out because no one is going to understand me if I talk high school instead of college professor. Oh great, now I'm stuck and can't talk ...never mind, continue with out me." Generally this happens to people with strokes or other various brain-type issues that cause damage. Me, car accident circa 1999. over 6 days in a coma.

What this means is that I write eloquently. In situations where I'm in control and in command, my confidence is high and I have command of language. So Miss Moxie the Domme hardly stutters or sticks (unless someone does something dumb that gets her stuck) But little Dory Fey, the Moxie Queen,.....once I get stuck anxiety does the rest. It's particularly bad when I'm talking to a Dom I REALLY like or an Alpha male hits a sensitive, embarrassing, or arousing topic ...

I discovered this a while back while talking on the phone with a Dom friend. This is a guy I've actually known as a friend and confidant for YEARS. Suddenly I can't get a clear sentence out of my mouth. He asked me a question, and I sound like a stammering newb. There's a direct disconnect between what my brain wants to say and what my mouth is willing to. Somewhere between the two my self-confidence puts on a diaper and starts moaning like an infant. "don't say that. OMG that's not right either"......

2. Manic aphasia
this is stage 2 of aphasia. This is when the training ...years of training...to combat stuttering come in and I start the breathing process, focus on WHAT is stressing out my speech, facing it, counting to 5 (it's a Lost tv show thing) feeling the fear, saying aloud what it is that's making me get stuck so that it's out there, and then moving on. But at that moment, I'm in linguistic shock, so I start speaking 90 miles a second. Information dump the size of Nessie's loch turds.

3. I have anxiety. I have spent 10+ years working on it through Buddhism, Wicca, Meditation, grounding, energy work and self therapy. DBT and CBT (not the cock kind) I occasionally have issues with it. Please don't treat me like Girl Crazy....Just remind me to breathe and let me do the rest. It rarely raises its head in settings where I am in charge....so I'm assuming it's a control issue.

This, doms is a good time to make this sub girl take a damn deep breath, grab her by the hair or throat and kiss her silent. It's a mind won't shut off thing. Keep in mind some girls in anxiety attacks can't be roughly touched. Another way to help in this situation is to rub a girl's hands or shoulders or feet helps. Gets circulation going, which sends oxygen and dopamine to the brain, breaking the panic)

Lastly, things I'm sensitive about. Cock Size. There's a detailed post in here with all the details if you need more. But if you're over 8 inches, you'd better be a patient guy. I have a bad history with someone the Gods gave more cock than is civilized to have. He hurt me...for a long time. For the longest time anything over 10 inches was a hard limit. (pun intended?) It's a soft limit now (maybe pun not intended) and I am starting to want to find a Daddy or Caring Dom to help me get over this one.

As always, lust and wetness,
the fabulous little miss Moxie
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random irony
Posted:Aug 31, 2018 6:00 am
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2018 9:14 am
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Yes I know I'm on an alternative lifestyle site.

When did kink begin to define desperately seeking random sex with total strangers?

I am not a barmaid. I am a Shield-maiden. I am not a hump or a fuck toy or a sweetbutt. I am a Warrior Queen. I am not a one night stand. If you talk to me like a bar wench, you will get a response that would make a sailor turn purple. And if you send me a dick pic, I will know that you're just a male hump looking to get his tip wet and not the Dom or sub I am looking for. Go blow dead goats.

Sorry, that was very aggressive of me.

There's more where that came from! There's some sugar there too, but it takes sweet to get to the sweets.

Does anyone know sweet anymore?

okay, rant over

the fabulous little Miss Moxie
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