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Blond, submissive, and sort of a brat, i'm in search of inspiration and maybe the guiding hand of a woman a bit more in control than i can be. i have always been submissive to my past girlfriends. None were lifestyle relationships however most did involve BDSM play on some level.. (i really really like being tied up and tend to be a service subbie with a slight bit of brat too).
i used to think i was a brat, until i saw some brats in action and realized that's way more extreme than anything i would do. You won't see me intentionally acting out to get punished except in the mildest ways. You will occasionally catch me talking back thinking i was being witty, or getting in over my head because i'll often assume i know how to do something better then the rest of the people in the room. Even on those occasions that i do, intellectually i know i should bite my tongue, the problem is i don't often think before opening my mouth in those situations.. i once tried to instruct someone on tying a proper knot..while she was tying me up. i really was trying to help, however she was NOT amused..(she was teaching others how to use rope, i forgot that as the test subject i was not a teacher lol)
I have too many interests to list. My favorite music is almost any music, i love being mischievous, inspiring a reaction, computers (yes, i'm a geekgrrl professionally), reading everything, musicals, plays, movies, seeing and trying new things. A brief (?) description of me ... If I ever write a book or if anyone writes a book on my life, I honestly think it will sound like a fantasy. Jane of all trades, a flirt, a humanitarian, an animal lover, a bitch, a show off, an exotic car nut, a basket case, a professional work-a-holic, an explorer of lands, cultures & deeper meaning (as long as i can bring my teddybear), a conqueror of fears, a vagabond story, a wanton women, a weirdo, a wannabe, a geek, an immature brat & someone who suffers from Peter Pan syndrome (a who saw the light and than decided sin was much more fun?). A misunderstood loner and terminally unique.
To the outside professional and even social world i pretty much appear to be an Alpha Woman. i am in a supervisory role in my profession and will challenge people in meetings. i'm 5'8" and in heels all the time, a lot of my peers have said i am really intimidating at work. i have said in the past on previous profiles that i'm kind of a mix of Lara Croft and Daryl Hannah's charactor "Madison" in "Splash" without really explaining. What i mean is like Lara, i will shock everyone at the things i have done or can do. i can and have restored a car, driven a motorcycle, jumped out of a plane, etc.. Generally when faced with something that i have never done and i'm alone to sort it out i will take the leap to prove to myself i can do it. One of my former bosses "joked" at the base we worked at that i had to be a spy. He really wouldn't let it go and i added to it from time to time talking about picking a lock, being better with a throwing knife than darts, or that while in the Marines i qualified as a rifle and pistol expert. Can assemble a .45, M-16, and a SAW blindfolded even if you mix up the parts. i'm equally at home arranging flowers, at an art opening, at a auto racing track or show (i can polish the car, fill in for a member of the crew, or turn a few reasonable laps), in a biker bar, at a political fundraiser, on horseback, or at a cubs game.
However, there's the other side of me... in other settings i'm very much like Madison was at the beginning of Splash or Gabrielle was in Xena.. a bit lost, needing someone looking out for me, reminding me to look both ways before crossing, someone noticing that while i'm distracted by something shiny while scuba diving there's a shark circling..
My best friend tells anyone that will listen that like Einstein i am really smart at some things, but need someone to make me remember to eat or put on a jacket. i want to protest that, but it's true.. i am so much better when i have a smart, strong woman as a check on my impulses. Left to my own devices i don't do nearly as well, and have been known to end up in over my head.
That almost sums me up. : )
Looking For:
i am NOT here looking for men at all. i don't hate men have many male friends, but i have a hard time trusting them in a more intimate setting.
I'm lesbian, and usually attracted only to women. Unless by some magical feat you happen to be one of the fictional males in movies i ever had a crush on then i really don't see any chance of me going out with a guy. Those fictional guys were attractive heroes like Legolas or Aragorn on LOTR, or a lot of the characters Johnny Depp has played :)
i'm much more likely to fall for smart, young femme women with a bit of alpha girl in them.. can you say Lucy Diamond or Lara Croft? i am not against the idea of a couple, would prefer lesbian couple, but MAYBE a husband and wife if she was Domme and i primarily was there for her. Generally i prefer women younger than me, but in control enough to take on a role of Domme, big sister, or Mother with me. not necessarily treating me as a baby, just i guess someone unafraid to make me start over and relearn what i think is normal.
i am also open to TS and should clarify that I really am just referring to TS. As i said, i'm lesbian, so sorry TV/CD's but in that category i really would only be open to someone committed and currently living as women. i have no interest in helping a CD dress up, but am open minded enough to not hold an accident of birth against a TS
i'm looking for someone who recognizes the brat in me.. and knows how to handle her. someone who understands the nature of the beast... and who knows all i really want is someone who will be my everything, someone to talk to, to listen to, who can take me by the hand and lead me to the discovery of my true potential. i would prefer someone with style, who won't hesitate to tell me to turn around and change clothes when i try to leave the house all in black the 4th time this week. Someone who dreams, has a wonderful sense of humor, and the ability to truly make me dance..
a final note to the guys that insist on this nonsense, i am not against men as friends, however if you write, please be polite, and if the only thing good you have to show in a photo is your crotch, don't bother. i find the whole person much more inspiring.
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