December 2011 - wow.. been a while.. updated a bit..
january 2007. just reread this for the first time in a long time. decided to do a little updating and changing. life isn't static, neither are people.
i have given a LOT of thought to what i want/need/like/desire, etc. it changes day to day but i have come to several conclusions. i am NOT slave material. ugh! i admire those who can do that, but it's not me.
i am not really sure i am a 'real' submissive either. i guess it would depend on your definition of what a submissive is.
so, where does that leave me in the lifestyle arena? lately i have just been thinking of myself as spicy vanilla. i very much enjoy pleasing a man, and giving up control. i enjoy bondage.
there's so much more to me, than sex and sexual games. i want someone i can share ALL of life with. the ups the downs, the ins and outs. but if a bit of kink fits there, so much the better.
i know a lot of guys are attracted to my sense of humor, wit, brain, whatever, but can't get past the size issue. that's fine. i have been told there ARE men out there who honestly like big girls. i have waited this long for you, i can be patient a bit longer. but i would like to say......
IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY BODY..DON'T MESS WITH MY HEART!
now.. just gotta figure out if i should change my nick to... rubeyspicyvanilla? LOL
hello, thank You for stopping by to read about me. i know i state this later, but let me do it here at the beginning too.. NO MARRIED/SEPARATED need wink or write. also, You need to live in the US. i am not now, nor do i have the desire to be "bi". i am selfish, will not share.. so You need to be happy with ONE.. me.. that about covers it... thank you again, for stopping by.
a lot of men find sex appeal in boobs.. but i would prefer someone who would find humor and strength and wisdom sexy.. not saying i don't have the boobs... but hey!!! my eyes are up HERE!!!.. stop talking to the 'girls'.. sheesh..
facts: 58, swf, long grey hair, blue eyes, 5'5" and i am a large lady. many varied interests, from fishing to crocheting and knitting; writing and reading..and oh, yeah.. i like to talk. lol. i think friends first, then more. about me: i took my nick from Peter Paul Rubens, the Master Artist who painted the wealthy and elite ladies of His time, who just happened to be larger ladies and "sub" because that is my preference. i am well-read and intelligent. i have a wide-ranging sense of humor, and at times, can be quite outspoken. i am open-minded and willing to try much. i don't like games and liars. am not actively seeking Anyone at this time.
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My Ideal Person:
my ideal would be someone honest and open. D/D free. NOT married or wanting more than one on one. he should be intelligent and creative.. someone with a sense of humor who isn't afraid to laugh and spoil his tough-guy image. Oh, and he must be passionate, about life and me. you do not have to be drop-dead handsome, nor rich, nor hung like a horse.. what i would cherish is not those things, but who you are inside.. and how you feel about me.. the rest is superficial.. problems can be overcome with open, HONEST, willing-to-air-it-all talking.. you need to be able to do that.. soooo? are you out there?
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