I am no longer seeking. I am owned by a wonderful, rare Master who wishes to mold me and mentor me. He desires to make me a better submissive and ultimately His slave. I am my Master's Urinal, His pigwhore, His little girl, His cumslut and Daddy's cunt. I accept all that He offers me, because above all of this He loves me as well. He is all that I need.
The following summarizes where I am at in this relationship and with myself. I hope that I can give it proper justice in my description.
My submission has definitely taken me on a journey. There are things that I never thought I would do, now I find myself with a smaller list of hard limits. It has been those limits that have been pushed and rearranged.
I have felt something missing in past D/s and S/m relationships. I have learned what devotion feels like. I know that might sound odd but for me it rings true. I have learned how much I want to please and how giving pleasure to Master brings a sense of completeness to myself. The key D/s elements are in balance as they are transformed into M/s and it feels pretty amazing.
I am more ok with myself than I have been in my life. Master has taught me that my devotion shows Him how much I love Him. I have learned to separate the humiliation and the degradation from the love He gives. He is the perfect blend of Master for me and it happened before I knew it.
I have experienced more than just the humiliation and degradation. I have served as Master's Urinal and I expect to start lactating in the near future. I have given up control of the decision making process, not completely but I expect that to change in the future. Master is a truly kind person and has allowed me certain freedoms.
I am far from the eloquent slave that Master deserves, but with His guidance and love I am getting there. I expect to arrive and bask in my deeper level of submission. I am confident that I will become what I desire, what Master desires. I feel like I am making strides everyday. I know Master is proud of me and there are times I am proud of myself. Master has not taken anything away but He has given me so much and He continues to give from His heart.
If you have made it this far, thank you for reading.
I basically will be here for blogging now and then. I have my favorite people here that I have been reading for the last year.
I will update this as progress occurs. I wish everyone the best.
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My Ideal Person:
I have found my ideal Person, He is the perfect blend of Master.
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