i am no longer looking. i am content with my life as it is. For the first time in a long time i am happy. i will still be on here to chat with my friends that i have made over the past 8 years.
]Who am i? i am one that cares for many, i have learned much over the years about love and losing love ones………i am NOT a player, i am not into poly relationships. i will only serve one and expect the same in return. i shall be whomever the one that captures my heart trains me to be , without losing who i am. He will know my needs and wants and desires. He will know when i need to be disciplined or held. He will understand the need to communicate with each other either by calls, emails or even text messages during the day. Those special little things just add to the relationship.
i love children, i raised 3 of my own. 2 of them still live at home while going to college and working. But, as much as i loved them when they were young, i am happy they are older as now it is time for me to enjoy life. They are and always will be a big part of my life. i will never make the one that captures my heart feel 2nd class, but would hope they understand my relationship with my children. It had only been us for the past 10 years. i am a retail manager, which makes it tough as i work every other Saturday evening and i do have my Sundays and Mondays off. But, we will make the time that we can, and build from there….it’s not how much time we see each other, but what we do when we get that chance and how much we get the chance to talk during the week. i am looking for an eventual 24/7 and then between He and i will we decide what needs to be done.
Here is what i wrote years ago not much has changed about my philosophy.
You had come to know me as "newlifeforme” As time went on and i learned more, my desires expand. i am no longer new to the life.. but now i am new to the desires that this lifestyle has to offer. I am exploring and have discovered some things so deep inside of me… something that has been missing for years…I am working on that part of my life still and not sure exactly which direction it will take me.
Without honesty there can be no trust.........Without trust there is no relationship.
Communication is the key to this lifestyle... communicate..comunicate and communicate more. Say what you mean, and mean what you say. Don't leave me hanging...you expect and will get a lot out of me, all i ask is true communication in return. i can not read minds, i do not know what is going on if you do not tell me. i want the truth…even if you think i can’t handle it..say it!! don’t lie to me.. don’t deceive me….just tell me what you are thinking. It isn’t a hard thing to do. When at a distance, it is hard especially when communication is not utilized as promised. We have no other means of communication but this media and the phone. If a relationship looks promising i wish to know right away.. and communication daily is essential to know this. You want to control me? then get to know me…
i am seeking one to grow with...to share times together with...to have fun with...LDR are hard and need a lot of communication and find out what each other wants....it is easy to get carried away from life and just throw everything into eachother and not breath...step back and breath...be honest...what do you really want? i'm not looking for playmates...i'm looking for something real and honest...something lasting.....it will take time...but they say...good things come to those who wait. i was willing to try poly once.. it was a bad experience and i will not even consider it.. so if you are poly minded do not even entertain the thought that you can change me.
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Newlife's update: i am happy where i am right now. i am not looking for anything but friendships. I have explored the Switching side a little bit and have found that i enjoyed both sides, for a little while. But i am and always will be a submissive. I will not be a Domme so if that is what you are looking for,i wish you luck. i am seeking a strong Dom. One that knows who he is, can take control, and if he likes to switch on occassion, fine, if not,i understand. switching is not something i HAVE to have in a relationship. But, be known that the short time i did switch, opened up my eyes a little bit more to a Doms responsibility.
Please do not make promises to me that you aren't willing to keep....say what you mean...go slow..be for real... know where you are at before you persue one and end up hurting this soul yet once more.
Giving the gift of submission is hard to do but i give it well. i'm not a weekender sub, nor one for just online. Once a Master/Dom has captured my heart, i shall give to him 24/7 together or apart. This life is not one to live in lies. Total honesty is a must on both ends. Communication and trust is a must. So, i wish to go slow...take some time.. get to really know someone..trust is hard for me sometimes... i have been promised lots of things before so i apologize ahead of time if i appear a little stand offish, but i know that nothing will happen over night. i live in Northern Nevada,and don't plan to leave for a while at least. Again, that will depend on the one that captures my heart.
For almost seven years i have seeked for the one to take me all (vanilla first then as a sub), good and bad. i thought i had found the one to serve. i would even say i was close another time, but as good as they felt, it was not meant to be. i take these times as lessons and growth. i look at my years as a training time for me. i had both good and bad experiences with Doms, vanilla and supposedly Doms. i learned from each one, i grew from each one...Perhaps they are the reason i decided to try switching.. to take some control..many say they were not surprised that i made that choice, but as i said, i am a submissive.
For the one Dom that wanted to see my potential realized and revealed for all to see its force, its flight, and its beauty, i thank you Sir and shall forever hold you in my heart. You gave me flight, watched me soar been there when i crashed and helped me mend my wings. You sent me off to fly again, and I soar more graceful then ever before. You will always be very dear and near to my heart.[/B
The one Dom in my life that i had just spoke about was my former Dom from a few years ago, and who remained my friend, confidant, teacher..... SageAlpha....his passing on May 14, 2006 has left its mark...i shall forever remember the lessons he taught me..his words still ring in my head..i know he shall be watching me fly from above now...and perhaps i shall feel his wings grace my cheek
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