disillusioned, hurt by players, self confidence in the basement, i turned off my profile for awhile.
The recent, sudden loss of a RT/VT best friend at the young age of 39 has caused me to rethink my life. my friend wasn't ill, she had dreams and hopes and plans like all of us. She complained of back pain, told her husband she was going to lie down and within minutes her heart stopped and she was gone.
Life is fragile and fleeting. because of her words, her advice, her love and loyalty to be there for me through bad times and good, i've come back to this place. i'm putting myself, my heart out there once again, hoping to find the One to call my Master, hoping to bring joy and love back into my life and to offer loyalty, love and this need to surrender to One that i hold deep inside.
Will i be hurt again? probably, but that's a chance i'm once more willing to take. i can't find what i'm NOT looking for, nor can He find me, if my heart, my desire is not out in the open to be seen.
and to you, my precious friend...
~~sail on silver girl~~
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My Ideal Person:
i came upon this quote by Kahlil Gibran today and it brought a smile. so much said in so few words. What i'm looking for in a person..no further words needed than these: ~~~~~~~ Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children.
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