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I met a man a while ago who ignited in me something that I wasn't really aware that I had. As a girl l had this fantasy of my Knight in shining armor coming sweeping o'er the hill and carrying me off. Well I met him finally, but it wasn't quite as I had imagined.
In my fantasy...we rode off happily into the sunset...the reality was very different! I wasn't prepared to be bound and thrown over his saddle (figuratively speaking here) and taken away to be totally dominated by him.
The long and short of my tale is that he turned out to be married...and I will NOT play, date or anything else with a Married Man, not now...not ever!
However he did light a fire deep within me that burns yet today, it eats at me and consumes me. I have spoken with some friends and tried to explain these feelings I have and their advice was to "go for it" to explore them and see if indeed they are real and that tis truly what I want and need. The B and D part I can deal with...but the S & M part?? You can keep it...I'm so not interested!
Do these feelings and emotions withing me frighten me? Damn right they do! Yet at the same time they thrill and excite me. A paradox I suppose, but one I must seek answers to.
I am pretty much an independant woman, I am secure in my job, and pretty much an outgoing, gregarious type who loves people, places and things. I am also strong willed and if indeed, there is a man out there who may find me interesting, he will have to be stronger than I in order to rein me in.
In the bedroom I think I am pretty adventurous and willing to try many things, having said that I do have a line which I will NOT cross. I am strictly a one man woman as I don't share well with others...
I do not always want gentleness. It does not displease me to be forced to recognize, and incontrovertibly, and with my whole body, that I am in a mans arms, those of a true man. Sometimes I confess, even I wanted the whip, not for its pain, which I feared, but for its proof of my domination, that I was owned wholly, and was going to be mastered. But sometimes, too, I wanted gentleness, I am pleased to report that they do so with authority. There is never any doubt, even then, as to the fact that you are in their arms, and who is in command. ~J. Norman
So...if you not a player, or a Submissive, drop me a line and we can talk... till then...
I wish you well...
elle
I'll end this section with a quote from something I wrote...
" I like you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.. I am the Ying to your Yang...with out you...I am nothing... I live... I breath... but there is no fire... "
Oh...did I mention I'm possibly looking for a long term relationship?? If the Chemistry is there... :))
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My Ideal Person:
What do I want? Hmmm....good question! Definitely NOT a Subbie male! Ewwww! But, man BOLD enough to take his kisses where he will and not always ask me if it is okay, one who can conquer me and claim me for his own. A man in whom I may place a deep trust and who understands how to control a woman both in and out of the bedroom.
He would have a deep sense of honor and integrety...be strong enough to bend me to his will, and yet gentle enough and kind enough to bring balance to our relationship. (Balance is so important to us Libran's! LO
Finding a man who understands intuitively what the true D/s relationship is about is what I seek. A man who knows that without a Submissive he cannot be a Dom and vice versa, without a Dom there cannot be a sub! I am very secure in my life and who I am, so when it comes to a relationship with a man, I have no problem in taking the "submissive'' or secondary role in that relationship. I will NOT however, allow myself to be walked on or used as someone's doormat.
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